eeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrr

a'! you know? when me is sad. she really ain't happy :| me just doesn't know why the hell things go wrong every time she tries to do the right things. eeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrr.



#ncel

a'! hmm, it's my grandma's 2nd death anniversary. i miss her :(

-#ncel

everytime i try so hard to do something, it just turns out wrong

a'!sooo. hmm. school? study? books? exams?

so, i have my finals this week. can you believe it?! i actually made it! whew! so eyes on the road. here's the thing, the first day of the exam is no sweat. seriously, it is! so i was excited for the second day. and i promised to myself that i will NOT BE LATE. yea you read that right. i kinda had a wake up call last week (i failed P.E because of my "lates"). i left the house at around 5:45. my exam starts at 7:30. pretty early huh? well, that's what i thought so.

but still, i was 30 mins late! why the hell! :o

i know i couldn't fly. i cant do anything. to make things worst, i felt like the things that i studied just exits outta my head to make room for my anxiety. so i was really frustrated. this thought just makes its way in my head.

in our world today, i think, most of the students just study to pass the exam. ask them about that subject after sembreak, i bet they wouldn't even know what you're talking about. i just think there's something wrong about it.



-#ncel

before hitting the sack

a'! its way way past my bed time. well, actually i dont have one. haha. okaay. i just want to post something before hitting the sack. my friend who's in the states just messaged me in my FB account. she said that she miss me sooo much and asked me when will i come visit her. aw. i miss her too. it brings back memories..

this blog doesnt contain much. i just wanted to write that no matter what, i will not break my promise to her. ill come and see her. of course it will take, uhm, i dont know? 4? 6? or 10 yrs for me to do what i promised to her. but still I WILL. after "i dont know years" and i read this blog and im about to die in the next couple of hours and i still havent done what i promised her:

DUDE! YOU'RE A LIAR JERK!!

haha. i meant it. gnyte! :*

-- #ncel

pinch me.

a'! first blog eh? hmm. i dont know if anyone's gonna read this. but o well, i just wanna let my mind speak.

im a freshmen college student right now. taking b.s psychology. just a freshmen student but i feel like im already 85 yrs old. i often stop and think about things. things that makes my mind go crazy. im bored. but not like bored bored. i mean, bored in a way that things that are happening to me right now feels like a movie ive watched 100 times. nothing's new.

i go to school --> class --> home. --> school --> class --> home --> school --> *bored* --> class --> home

damn! just over and over again. i really miss highschool. highschool is more than that. i miss my highschool friends. even though i already feel like they dont even miss me. im LOST. i dont know what to do. i want to find happiness but it keeps hiding on me.

these things really bother me. im feeling numb. i need a pinch. even just one.

-- #ncel