a'! Yes. I can officially feel it. This "i am now a college student" feeling. meeeehn. we're old :| but still, something remains the same. this thing, it doesn't change. from kindergarten, elementary, highschool. and now, college. i always feel like i am left behind. the person in the background while the movie is on its climax. the back up voice in a song's chorus.
I have friends. actually i have loads of them. seriously. i am not a loner. but the more people surrounds me, the more alone i feel. a couple of days back, someone texted me. he's asking stuffs about dawn. he said he's gonna make a write up about dawn. of course i am proud of dawn. it's super cool. i remembered when i forced her to accompany me in joining the Courier (the club of our school paper). then she became our editor in chief. and now, an applicant is writing an article about her. cool no? so proud! ;)
hmmm. who else? uh, Jo! a new friend of mine. i remembered when i met her. i thought we weren't gonna be friends. i thought we just dont click. but of course, that changed. OBVIOUSLY. haha. before, i thought Jo is one of those "Maria Clara with a twist" girls. the shy type but super talkative when with friends. someone who still havent come out of her shell. but boy i was wrong. super talented! she can play the piano, guitar, can sing and boy, can dance. of course, all of us don't know each other that much since we've just met a few months back. but i can see that she's super talented. she just dont show it to others that much. sayang yan Jo! ;)
but what is really my point? i've talked about different things but still, i havent talked about what i wrote on the first paragraph. about me feeling a "left behind dude". so here it goes.....
these past few weeks, i always feel this shitty feeling. every dismissal, of course, i still wanna stay. but my friends have other businesses. ME? "err". Jo has training. Nika has a life. Actually, they ALL have a life. Seriously, where can get some of those?! I OBVIOUSLY, SERIOUSLY, BADLY need one :| Im already in college yet i still havent done something! Lord, SERIOUSLY (for the 3rd time!) when can i claim a life? :|
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